Every new year I have new resolutions listed down. They remain in the list until the year expired. It was hard to fulfill your ambitions because they usually out of your ability range. I am tired to see me failing to execute my new year’s resolution. This new year I put up things I no longer want to continue doing. Scrapping off old habits should be easier than dreaming a new one.
Lose weight
I don’t care if it was 80 or 800……this battle would not hold me back anymore.
2. Sitting on a plane for more than six hours
waking up to a sunrise at 30,000 feet above the sea level was unforgettable but…….you “aged” as you sit through.doing nothing.
4. Keeping a sourdough starter alive.
It was fun but the thing is alive…. and you have to feed it from time to time. I would rather adopt a cat thank you very much.
5. Applying for a new job
This type of email keeps popping up and stirred my heart to be working again. Sometimes my days as a retiree were long and quiet. Some chaos might be interesting . But again do I want to be an old grandpa sitting along the young ones waiting for an interview!? It’s their time to find out what the world has in store for them.
6. meeting with people that will dig up my past in the conversation
Some people adore old friends but I fear them when the old times revisited. I have brutal pastimes that keeps coming back to haunt me at the dead of night. The wounds never heal just keep bleeding whenever touched. I love my friends, no doubt, but this year I will meet only the non toxic ones. Please.
7. Spending time in a hospital ward.
Oh God, please no more!
8. Stuck in a conflict
Debates and confrontations will drain my energy. I don’t need them and will avoid at any cost. 2026 will see me play dumb and select my breakfast buddy carefully.
9. Disappointed for being poor as a kid and dreaming to be rich one day.
I seem to dress properly. During this time our family was small and Mak and Ayah could afford a proper attire for my sister and I. As our family grew (into 12 of us) and school commitments became a burden, poverty started to creep in . Family crisis became routine and I started to feel the pain for being poor. This year I will stop being sorry for myself and dreaming to be rich someday. I’ve had enough of everything I needed.
10. Doing malls.
Recently, I got lost in a mall. My phone was dead and couldn’t let my family know where I was. Confused and disoriented, I sat by my trolley full of groceries, waited for a familiar face to emerge from the moving crowd. This is my place , my people, my country but for the first time in my adult life I felt frightened and scared. stop doing malls I don’t need this insecurity.
